first off there is graham crackers in my seat…gotta fix that….mucho better.anywho.okay to all you who know what is going on my life.you’ll probably understand this more than others;but if you don’t know && would like to know id be happy to tell you just let me know on myspace (URL=olivegardenbreadsticks)
but any who;i have just had an epiphany.why am i tearing up myself inside about this whole situation?i have so many good guys who want to be with me and I’m still tearing up myself inside about this one guy;it really doesnt make sense.as much crap as hes put me through;i mean really i know that we have been through a lot but i could go through a lot with someone else who actually would care that they hurt me.he has obviously moved on and is happy with the fact that hes hurt me for HIS popularity.selfish being i tell you.even though id tell him over and over do what ever you think is best for you…ha,he did alright.but for the wrong reasons.i guess i wasnt specific enough.o well.hes happy i guess that’s all that counts.but I’m done.no,im not over him.it WILL take awhile just because we were together so long[in all].but i just have to set that as a goal.pray about it.i have god&& my friends on my side i think it is a reachable goal.yeah i will care for him forever. and yes i know i am only 15 BUT its not like its impossible for me to care about a guy this much at only 15.but i do believe i am done writing this amazing blog about my heart break.so.wish me tons of luck.
baby,boo;or any other pet name for that matter unless you actually care about me.don’t call me that if you swear up && down were “just friends”.that’s immature and misleading.it makes me think that you care more about me then you do.which ends up hurting me in the long run.so if you care just a smidgen then quit doing it to me.
recently i have had the one person that i trust just evaporate into thin air.which is really the hardest thing that could ever happen to me.but I’m coming to realize that i can rely on one person for my happiness.i have to combine all of the people i trust and put them into my pocket per say.and the thing is i know that these people will never leave me no matter what i happens or what i do.they will always be…in my pocket.they are tightly attached to me permanently as much as i may get on their nerves and they get on mine they will never leave me hanging empty.i love you guys.you all know who your are.and i thank you for being…in my pocket.i love you:]
bekah wonders how many times will i lose someone i care about until its over?
i wish things did really start over everyday.like everyday you forgot the bad things that happened the day before.but;there is always up and downs to that.well an up would be the fact that everyone would be in a good mood.which would get kinda of annoying&& creepy after awhile.also,no more pain.girls be sitting around sulking about their boyfriend cheating on them 4 weeks after it happened&& guys wouldn’t be pissed about the play they made in their basketball game two days earlier.sounds like a perfect life huh?well unfortunately god didn’t make us to have a perfect life.he made us to learn from the troubles&& bad mistakes we come in contact with.bummer.its too bad we cant have a perfect life.but I’m just happy with what i have even though I’m still sulking about the heartbreak of life.
bekah wonders if this is really possible can you really have the perfect life.like if that is THE only thing you strive for.is it ever going to be reachable?